r2roswell - A Difficult Talk

(written 6/19/07)

What you need to know about my partner, Aaron Roy: He's 20 yrs. old and has been an agent at NTAC for one year.  As his father works for the military, Roy did not have to go to college but instead was able to go straight into training.  He had a brother who was seventeen but died from unfortunate circumstances.

We were in our hotel when I brought up the subject again.

"If the 4400 and Promicin positives make you angry, why do you do this job?"

"Milano, drop it.  I told you I wouldn't do this."

"It's because of your brother, Roger isn't it?  You feel guilty about what happened to him."

"What do you know?!  Did you read my NTAC file?"

"No."

"Then how?  No one at NTAC knows about him."

"The 'how' isn't important right now.  What's important is the anger you're carrying within you.  The reason you try to hate the 4400 and Promicin takers is because you have a Promicin secret of your own, don't you?"

Roy stayed quiet for a long time.  

"My father was a military man- always strict.  He always instilled in us the military rules and made it an order that we find some way of going to West Point.  Roger and I didn't want it.  We wanted to do some actual good in the world, something that didn't involve the military."

I continued for him, "So when Collier introduced Promicin to the world you saw your chance."

"Yeah.  We both knew the risks and as a precaution we wrote letters to family.  When Roger died, I just hated myself for it.  I would give anything to go back.  He died back in September but not a day goes by when I'm not angry and when I wish it would have been me instead.  You have no idead what it feels like."

"Yes I do," I replied.

"You've lost someone to Promicin?"

"Yeah, I lost a friend from taking a shot and then I lost my family to an Anti."

"So what did you do?"

"I decided to not let my anger control me.  I decided to join the movement and instead of going to college I took a road trip to help the 4400 and Promicin + while at the same time taking Promicin myself.  As well  as trying to do that mission while working for NTAC.  Someone has to help them understand no matter what the cost."

"So what ability do you have?"

"I can read the minds of animals and provide them with what they need.  What's yours?"

"I'm able to erase things from a person's memory or erase things on paper with the flick of a hand movement."

"That's very useful."

"It can be I guess.  I don't like using it much because of what happened to Roger."

"Mind if I give you some advice?" 

Roy shook his head and I told him, "It's not your fault he died.  He did know the risks and he was ready for it.  I think your brother would want you to continue on with the plan you both hand in mind: do some actual good in the world.  DOn't use that guilt and anger for the side of vengence.  Instead use it as fuel for the good side.  Roger would want you to accept who you are and not run away from it."

Current Mood: okay